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To say that this board will be controversial is an understatement as it goes against almost everything society presently believes to be true about emotions, feelings, life and love. But then why wouldn't it be controversial if the desire and goal is the opposite of what is presently being experienced! To empower yourself, you need to be open to challenge everything you believe to be true, especially about love, life, emotions and feelings and also be willing to end your denials of self.

I openly share the knowledge, tools, messages and insights that I've gained through sixteen years of intensive personal experience and in working with others on their journey. Feel free to visit the various forums and posts and to also add your personal experiences, comments and questions. It is my intent that the ideas and works that will be discussed within this forum will not only expand your consciousness, but also activate your emotions and touch your heart.

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Hi Janno,

The BIG door is the door of FEAR OF. Right now your BIG door is your fear of allowing your feelings and intuition to be expressed because if they are right, then that means your mind is wrong, and has been wrong, all along and then that will change everything and your world will come tumbling down. … Your mind wants to remain in control… of everything, your body, feelings, emotions and intuition and even your heart….

CONTROL is not Unconditional Love. You don’t like it when others control you… That’s what your mother did, that’s what others have done to you. That’s what your partner is doing to you, and why? … Because that is what you are doing to yourself! You are CONTROLLING the parts of you that you find unacceptable and how do you think they feel? Controlled, manipulated, unloved, unwanted, alone, confused, All this is going on INSIDE you and is being reflected back to you, by your OUTSIDE experiences. And the puppet master is your mind… A mind that has been altered by it’s imprints, programs and beliefs that it believes to be the truth and reality… The mind is living the Illusion it believes to be real…

My light is already shining…. You need to find the heart light within you and let it shine… and not control it….

John

PS: Thanks for the, question, “There is some difficult choices to be made...please send me light so I won't lose my way again...” as I was responding, I was also being activated . I, like you am also controlling my light and my fear is about getting my books out there and “shining my light” My fear is about not shining to bright as to attract those that will want to kill it… Shine…. but not to bright…. Putting you light under a bushel basket… Hummmm?

I went to find my Bible and I opened it and glanced down to a verse that I had marked… it was St Luke 11:33 “No man, when he hath lighted a candle, putteth it in a secret place, neither under a bushel basket, but on a candle stick, that they which come in may see the light.”

I never understood or felt it the way I’m feeling it now…. I am the light, the truth and the way. My books are going to be out there… for all to see that want to see….

Thanks again my brother.
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Reply Re: About the illusions of life...One HUGE issue!
Ok you see the truth is that i stayed with him at first because i believed i was doing him a favour...i was afraid he will be too miserable without me and might even kill himself. That's how it all started between us. I thought i was being loving by staying with him and making him happy...

What do you think of that?

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Reply An Issue being solved...
My goodness i'm completely confused by this, but i'm very happy for you for realizing your own light!!! What a marvel .

I am in so much fear right now...i'm not sure all of this will work out at all, but i guess i'll have to leave that for tomorrow. Can't think too hard too late...

I'll have all of my feelings written in my online Diary...

Thank you for leading the way for me !

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Reply Wonderful!

I wish i was able to see my light already...
Like you said all these feelings of abandonment have surfaced and i feel like backing off this whole thing...i'm afraid i'm making the wrong decision...
Please don't hold back your light, there are so many of us who need your guidance...but then again...better not to get attched to anything...

 In need of some brotherly love

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Reply Hey!
Hey John!

Now i've discovered that the reason why i've chosen to stay in this relationship is that he has helped me to come to terms with all the issues i had when i was younger - such as shyness and the fear of not having a place to go and he's helped me to patch up the wounds i had from the past...I think i'm not quite sure what is going on anymore...who's the devil here? He is still controlling like we've established, but he's also been quite good to me in a way that he halped me to come to terms to my 'child' self...brought me up in a way...

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  Raising your Vibration... Lifting out of the Fog
 
Hi Janno,

After I wrote and posted [post 75].... "Confusion.... being on two different pages..." on Page 3 of this thread I felt that there was more that you need to know. I got to thinking that you need to not only become aware of your body and what is yours and what isn’t, you also need to be come aware of your thoughts and what are not your thoughts and what is actually old imprints, programs and beliefs that other people spoke and told you, or you read, that you took as truth and reality. They might also be the voices of the Inner Critic or of Guilt and shame or of an unloving so-called guide or entities you falsely believe are your voices and your thoughts. If they are your thoughts and your consciousness, then you need to find out why you are thinking this way, where the thoughts came from and what inspired them and where they are going. If they are NOT your thoughts, then you need to challenge them to find out why you have them and why you believe that what they are saying is true. It may have been a truth in the past, but is it the truth in this moment or experience?

To add to the confusion, In that same moment, you also have to become aware of your feelings, emotions and your intuition. You also have to separate your feelings and emotions from other people’s feelings and emotions that your intuition is picking up. Again, like your thoughts, you need to go deeper and ask, but now more importantly, be open to feel them to their depth. You also have to become aware of what feelings and emotions are also old Imprints, programs and beliefs.

Ahh.. but there is more. Now you need to combine all three of these in the moment of your experience. You need to be aware of what your Mind is thinking, what your feelings and emotions and intuition are feeling and what you Body is sensing and then you need to have an inner dialogue (without denial) to determine the loving response.

You only have 1/10 of a second (the blink of an eye) at best before your mind (working on its old imprints, programs and beliefs and denial) snaps the door shut on the input he is getting from his Will ( feelings and intuition) and from his Body and goes with the same old program and the unloving cycle continues.

The hardest part of awakening your consciousness is to get the mind to STOP from moving past the information that it is receiving from the Will and Body and to also examine and question its old imprints, programs and beliefs. As long as the mind is CLOSED and in denial of the other parts of its being, then no healing, no growth and no rise of consciousness is possible, but the opposite is true.

You are literally, right now, in a thick pea soup fog where you can’t even see your hand in front of your face. This fog is made up of old imprints, programs and beliefs as well as feelings and emotions and physical sensations and they are not just your own, but are also everyone and everything around you including entities and Spirits in the Astral plane. Including your past life fragments.

You literally have to think and slowly feel your way through this fog, but not in the OLD way that you have been used to. Now you have to become aware of every thought, word, feeling, emotion, deed, action, and re-action and then responding to the situation in love, instead of RE-ACTING.

And slowly, the fog begins to break up you begin to see things as they really are and as you raise your consciousness higher and higher you begin to move to a place where you are above the densest part of the fog. You can still see and hear your friends and loved ones calling out from the fog that you were once in. From this point, you can see and hear them but they can’t see or hear you. It’s as if you were two different worlds, on two different pages, as you are on a different level of vibration or consciousness than they are. While you may be out of the thickest fog, you are still... "in the fog" but now the fog is less dense and now you move around a little more easier in search of truth, love and the awareness that will lift you still higher. Moving a little easier, but also feeling a little lost and lonelier, as all that you knew is still in the fog.

An important point I feel I need to make here is that the hardest thing that I needed to realize on this journey was that (A) you can’t go back, and (B) you can’t "save" or "lift" anyone out of the fog. They have to get out on their own. If you try to go back and get them, then you risk losing your way and becoming stuck in the fog that you worked so hard to get out of. Once you feel the fog closing back in around you, you also know that it’s not what you desire and so you know you can’t go back unless that is your is your desire. If you have these thoughts and feelings, then gain, you need to go into them to see what imprints, programs, beliefs or guilt and shame you are still carrying that say you need to sacrifice yourself to save another. You also need to look at your possible attachments to these people as attachments are also not coming from a place of unconditional love, but control.

John


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Re: Page 4 (jannokas Posts: 138 Re: About the illusions of life...One HUGE issue!

Hi Janno,

Having the courage to finally face up to your attackers, or to leave an unloving relationship is considered by most to be a step of self-love but it really isn’t, as the real issues have still been denied. All it is, is merely a form change and of going to the other end of the denial teeter-totter. It’s simply making another choice, one of the first three of the basic choices we have, are which are:

A) Fight
B) Flight
C) Give up
D) Surrender to love

By far the hardest first step to self love is choice (D) which is to have the courage, the Heart, and self love to face and express you "Real" emotions, feelings and intuition in the moment you are thinking of choosing either one of the first three choices. Expressing "False" emotions, based on what you think has happened, is happening or is about to happen is merely other versions of the first three choices and is not expressing your "real" emotions.

"Food for thought"
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Re: This thread, Page 4 (shenreed Post: 83... Shining your Light)

Hi Janno,
Thanks again for the actgivation...emoticon

After I was activated, I realized lated that while I had gotten to the stage of having most of the material for my next books a few years ago, I wasn’t personally ready. That’s to say that I still had more healing to do and more cycling through the various stages and levels of "walking my talk" to get me to "shine my light."

In my journey, I first I had to get my light ignited within me (light my candle) in order for me to see my light. Once I had it lit and seen it for what it is, now I never want to put it out and neither do I want to hide it, I want to share it. BUT... that was also a problem. Those that I wanted to share it with didn’t want to see it or they would say that I was preaching or that I was holier than thou. They wanted me to hide my light or to not shine it so bright.

In the years following my "lighting my candle," so to speak, I cycled through various chat groups and forums on the internet, to personal groups I tried to form, to friends and family to personal relationships and then to myself and then I’d reverse the order and work my way back out again. And after that, I do it all over again reaching a different level of healing and understanding.

I feel that that work I’ve done in the past few months has helped get me to this point. Having again "walked my talk" and cycled through family and friends and then out into the public world but this time on a very physical and personal level. That is to say, that I now had direct and personal contact, from very close friends and expanding that all the way out to meeting thousands of people while working at Dollarama. In the course of my interactions with employees and customers, I choose not deny my light, but to let it shine and not keep it a secret or hide it under a bushel basket.

A few days before being activated by you, I was talkling to Irene, a friend of mine, about how I was blocked on writing my book, While we pulled out some issues that I still had to look at and heal,I still felt that there was something missing and now I feel that this is it, as it all makes sense. All these experiences these past few years were necessary in order to prepare me for this moment and also the coming changes.

The writing and publishing my book will be another stage or level of my growth and healing experience on a global level. After that there will be the phone calls and meetings, book signings, lectures, workshops, interviews, TV appearances, one cycle after another. And intertwined with this and doing their own cycles are all the other issues that I have, that still need to be healed. And again, they will move from within, to personal relationships, to family and friends, and continue in an outward spiral and then they will begin their return cycle to start all over again, but now on a higher level of consciousness and awareness.

And so the journey into the unknown continues.

John
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Dear John,

First i want to say i wish there was something i could do or say to convince you of not hiding your light under the bushel basket - let it shine as brightly as it needs to!
Secondly i would like to ask you - when you talk about healing...then is it healing of fear? You are healing yourself from the 'old ways' and bringing back the youthful spirit that knows no boundaries? Although i know what it means intuitively, but perhaps you could explain it a little bit?

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Hi Janno,

Thanks for the encouragement...

Yes, you are correct but there is more. When I say healing, I'm primarly talking about healing your emotions, including fear. But fear is not the only emotion, ALL emotions that are deemed "negative" need to be healed and that includes, heartbreak, anger and rage, terror, and everything in between. Then you also have to deal with healing the mind and the body... The mind needs to let go of it's imprints, programs and beliefs, and the body needs to let go of the unloving energy it's holding that is creating disease in the body...

I'm going to give you a link to my Message Board. I did a post a while back on fear that will give you some "food for thought."

John
"Healing begins in the Heart"

PS: Edited for the following related link.

Spiritual Awareness > Questions & Answers > Fear is what?

My post>>> shenreed Posts: 24 (6/28/06 8:02 am)
        

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