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This board is multifaceted, crossing various topics from New Age, spirituality, metaphysical, psychology, physical issues, relationships, emotions, self-help and more. It is created for those who seek change and desire to empower themselves, to live life as an expression of who they really are in unconditional love. If you think/feel that your life and this world full of denial, fear and unlovingness is totally opposite what you desire, it is no coincidence that you are here.

To say that this board will be controversial is an understatement as it goes against almost everything society presently believes to be true about emotions, feelings, life and love. But then why wouldn't it be controversial if the desire and goal is the opposite of what is presently being experienced! To empower yourself, you need to be open to challenge everything you believe to be true, especially about love, life, emotions and feelings and also be willing to end your denials of self.

I openly share the knowledge, tools, messages and insights that I've gained through sixteen years of intensive personal experience and in working with others on their journey. Feel free to visit the various forums and posts and to also add your personal experiences, comments and questions. It is my intent that the ideas and works that will be discussed within this forum will not only expand your consciousness, but also activate your emotions and touch your heart.

In love, light and life,
John Rieger aka Shenreed

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Gray World


Well, here's where I'll post the days of my life. Hopes, dreams and spiritual aspirations. Issues, tissues and all. I'm not into the touchy feely thing. I'm not. Seriously. I flinch at the thought of sentimentality. Just listen to the monotone of these words.

But I also know it's time for a change. I don't enjoy life. I feel like I'm walking around with a towel wrapped around my head. With cotton balls in my ears and up my nostrils. Like I'm only experiencing a fraction of what's really there. And I know I don't have the same range of feelings as I once did. Every emotion lately is a shade of gray. It's not that I'm just tired of certain things. NOTHING excites me anymore. When good things happen I can only ponder the fact that eventually I have to return to monotony.

I recently got a flu so bad I couldn't walk in a straight line. And a vicious depression came right along with it. I remember thinking "This is a dark world governed by dark and ambigious laws." I've been tired for years. I yawn and get dizzy all the time. I am pale with dark circles under my eyes no matter how much I sleep. I always feel anxious and desperate and guilty and found wanting of something. I'm absent minded and socially inept. I'm Mr. Invisible.

I've turned to New Age spirituality in an attempt to deal with it. I've been reading "The Power of Now" by Eckhart Tolle and trying to develop my own method based on living completely in the moment and to become enlightened. I've been practicing a method which I posted on this forum, but was strongly disagreed with by John.

Later I'll post the details of my past. To give everyone (especially myself) an idea of how I've gotten where I'm to. I'm not sure of the etiquette for these journey journals. But I personally don't mind people posting their comments. This is a community where everybody learns from everybody else.
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Re: Gray World



  Hi,
  I just read your post and I have alot of the same issues as you. All that comes to mind for me is f the system.
  The happiest time of my life is when I cared the least. The system is a vulture and does not care about you and I.
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